2005-2006

Such a great year. I can't believe I just spent over two hours reading old Xanga posts and looking at old pictures. Yet, I feel like that was one of the best school years of my life. I had Samson and Helen - two of the best friends anyone could ask for. I'm positive about that. Our friendship was complicated, funny, and so genuine I can't even describe it. Like Helen said, I can't believe we put up with Samson and his craziness in general. I miss it so incredibly much. But when I was reading my old posts, I realized how much I've changed since then. It's a little strange.

The person that I've become today is better in some areas and worse in others. I think that now, I am extremely accepting and non-judgmental. I care about others more than myself, but I still am independent and watch out for myself. Yet, now I am much more relaxed when it comes to relationships. I haven't had a legit relationship since March 2007. That was over two and a half years ago. What is up with that? Let's consider. I think that at this time, I'm more concerned with discovering what is important to me than what is important to someone else. I want to focus on myself, my education, and other things. Although it might be nice to share those experiences with someone else, I feel like it might add unnecessary stress into my life, and I don't think that I want that right now.

I think back to this New Year's experience, and even since then, I have matured so much. My goal this year is to celebrate with the people I love. The important thing is to bring in the year healthy and happy, not forget it. I can't believe it's already November. In two months, it will be the year 2010. That is absolutely ridiculous. I can't wait.